I'm Still Here

No, I didn't disappear,
although some days it feels like it.
My friend Michele just asked me yesterday where I have been
because NO ONE has really seen me all week
{or more like the past two weeks}.

You'd think that after finding out the official news that 
That I'd be on top of the nearest peak, announcing it at the top of my lungs
{although, I did, in kind of a virtual way. Thank you, Facebook.}
but quite honestly, 
I am exhausted.

I think that the very tense days leading up to Wednesday, November 9th, when we received the official call, just had me so wound up that it's taken me so long to unwind from it all.
That and the fact that we were so concentrated on the baby stuff that it almost slipped our minds that Thanksgiving is next week, and as of Saturday, my guest list inadvertently increased from 15 to a whopping 20. TWENTY!!! 
So scramble away we have been... purchasing extra plate settings, figuring out how to finagle seating, finalizing our menu.

On top of that, the exhaustion during this pregnancy has been fairly significant. I keep thinking, "Was I this constantly exhausted when I was pregnant with the girls?" I know that I was much sicker when I carried them {although this pregnancy, thus far, has not been without queasiness}, but I think in the 8 short months since I was pregnant with them, I had forgotten how winded I felt all the time, especially in the first trimester. Earlier, I was on the phone with my friend and walked up the stairs while talking. By the time I had reached our bedroom, I was so out of breath!

At any rate, here are a few more updates in list form:

  • [Morning] Sickness: Not really, but some normally after meals. I have been pretty diligent about putting on my PsiBands (Sea Bands) and it's helped diminish the queasiness within minutes.
  • Cravings: So far, the most constant has been root beer. I want it all the time, but have been really good about drinking more water, especially since my lips have been so chapped and my skin has been so dry, but I think that's largely because of the weather change too.
  • Mood: Cuh-rank-yyyyyyy. Wow. I don't know how J puts up with me. Heck, I don't even know how I put up with me! The same as last pregnancy, I have been my most hated quality in a person: needy. All I want is J and I want him to myself. I am extremely sensitive and have found myself swallowing a lump in my throat to stop from crying. FOR. NO. REASON. I hate weak characters and I have become exactly that.
  • Next appointment: We have a double appointment on Dec. 2nd -- one with PRC and one with Kaiser -- both to get ultrasounds of Baby. We are so excited to hear the baby's heartbeat!
I have to apologize for the scatterbrained thoughts on this post. I promise pictures and a much more organized post for next time! 

Most importantly, however, we both want to thank all our friends and family who have been praying for us all this time and continue to pray with us. I never thought this until I went through it myself, but there comes a time in life when faith really saves you, and everyone's faith has done that for us. Thank you for being there for us through the worst time of our lives, and being with us through this amazing journey we have been blessed enough to embark on again. xo


Carla (Choosing His Joy) said...

Continuing to pray...and I'm praising God for the sweet husbands we have--thankfully, they both put up with us when we're moody and still love us! : )

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