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Blackout!

I looked out over the valley last night and found a sea of darkness. The last of days of summer had been pounding us with heat and humidity and this evening was no exception. Though the night had brought cooler weather, it remained still and breezeless. 


I am shaken from my zoned out state by the stifled giggles of children running past me. It is 8:45 p.m. on a school night and close to twenty neighborhood children are playing Cops and Robbers on our street. In the background, I hear chatter and laughter from the adults, with 90's pop music and the Green Bay Packers vs. New Orleans Saints game from someone's car radio.


It is a blackout, an event that I spent many years enduring as a child in the Philippines, but as a resident of South Orange County, CA, this event is unheard of.


The power went out at about 3:30 p.m., when I was still at work. With most of my duties performed on a computer, it brought our entire office to a standstill. Upon checking my cell phone, I noticed that it read, "No Service". The cell relay sites must have gone down too, I was told. I was able to leave a few minutes earlier to stop by and drop off mail at the post office. No luck -- by the time I had arrived there at 4:30, the doors were shut and locked. 


I headed to the supermarket with the intention of purchasing some ice to keep in our ice chest and in the freezer to save my precious steaks and ice cream {a balanced diet, I know}, holding my breath that it may not even be open. Surprisingly, they were open for business, and even more shockingly, they were still able to run on minimal power and accept debit and credit cards. Though I had cash on me, I could hear my husband's voice in my head {"Keep the cash. Use the debit card, since you can. We may need the cash later and not be able to get some"}. Sweet, I thought. It wasn't long until I was greeted by disappointment when I found an almost empty ice case. The lady in front of me had grabbed the last block of ice. Not letting that get in the way of my goal, I grabbed five large bags of the only other alternative: flavored ice. I figured it would do the job of saving my steaks, and if anything, they'd make for great cocktails that I counted on having later on that evening. No matter what, I wanted to get home, and quick, as I was sure that everyone was going to treat this situation as a disastrous catastrophe, and that equated to ridiculous traffic. 


I got home and ensured that my movements were slow -- with the heat, humidity, and no electricity to run our air conditioning, I was not about to tire myself out. It wasn't long until our neighbors started gathering on my driveway... and suddenly people were bringing lawn chairs, blankets to sit on our front lawn, candles, and flashlights. 



As dark became more imminent, children huddled in small and large groups, plotting the rules of whatever game they happened to be playing at the moment. 

 At about 9:00 p.m., screams of jubilation resounded through our cul-de-sac, as phone calls to parents came in from the local school district's automated message service, announcing that school had been cancelled the next day.



Women gathered in groups on patios, sharing stories and gossip.


Several parents brought out whatever popsicles, ice cream sandwiches, and other cold items from their freezers and handed them out to the eager neighborhood children {and even some other adults!}. At one point, someone even brought out a fire pit and put it in the street directly in front of our driveway.


In any other given time or place, it may have been easy to complain, squirm in discomfort, or find blame in whoever or whatever it may have been that caused us all to come out of the comfort of our homes, but luckily, such was not the case on the night of the big West Coast Power Outage. It seemed to me that everyone was actually thankful for it.


For a few hours, summer seemed to have found its way back to our street. Illuminated only by flashlights, candles, and glowsticks, everyone was able to have an encore of a hurrah for summer.

Redecoration Nation Part II

Everything in this home is such a work in progress. I've finished the backdrop wall at the dining room and have migrated my redecorating fever to the family room.


Lately, I've been teaching myself how to sew.
Thank goodness that a few weeks ago, my mother-in-law came to visit
and she gave me a few pointers on how to use my sewing machine.


One of the first things I wanted to make was new pillowcases for my throw pillows in our family room.


Inspired by finds from my favorite Pinterest boards, 
and armed with some new muslin fabric
and adorable stencils from Mary Labarre, Artistic Stencils, and Your Memories Captured all on Etsy
I began the daunting task of putting together designs and a color scheme to make my family room look more like it belongs in a home.


More than anything, I wanted to prove that I could actually sew something
with nothing more than a YouTube sewing education in my resume.


You tell me.


The room started out like this: free pillows with cheap hotel looking covers.



God-awful polyester quasi velvet ugliness:

As soon as we first bought the couch last year, I bought some lumbar pillows from Home Goods so as to soften the look of the room and to add a pop of color in what would have been a mere collage of poop brown.

Naturally, the first thing I did was to remove the Fruit Roll Up looking striped pillowcases and stashed them in depths of my laundry room that are only inhabited by lost socks.
And I replaced them with happier, self-stenciled, self-SEWN pillows.



{Yes, I know, the new pillowcases are wrinkled. That would be in large thanks to my brother and stepson, visiting for the weekend, and throwing their lanky, adolescent appendages haphazardly all over my furniture. Forgive me.}



Otherwise, I'm happy so far to have gotten rid of the velvety stripes. 

Next, the family room, and that lonely wall ascending by my stairs.

Have a lovely Sunday!





There Once Was a Party Girl

My baby cousin {well he's 24 years old...} is visiting us from New York this week.
He graduated from college last year, and graduated from his first long term relationship. Right now, he's enjoying the single life. 


On the other side of the family, I was talking to J's cousin earlier.
She's 21, going into her last year of college, and newly realizing that being young and single is actually a pretty cool thing... that you don't have to be in a relationship all the time to be happy. 


Talking to these two, I was reminded {a little bit} of this girl I once knew, think about sometimes, but very seldom miss. {Not that either of them is like this girl... it's just that they are both young and single too}


I'm talking about: 

Now I'm not going to lie, she was a lot of fun.
If I'm not mistaken, 
on more than one occasion
and by several different circles
she was known to be the party animal of the group.




She wasn't afraid of banzai road trips to Las Vegas
Late nights and all nighters in Hollywood
usually diluted in countless cocktails.
She was usually followed by a cloud of smoke
and an attitude that reeked of 
a lack of care for the world.


She was over 21, working, living on her own, and nothing else mattered.
Birthdays, holidays, weekends... and heck, any given week night
were celebrated with a mix of Captain Morgan and Diet Coke {her beverage of choice on most occasions}


And then one day it all changed.
Suddenly everything spiraled out of control.
The life she worked so hard to keep up with
finally ran too quickly for her
and she simply 
spun.
out.


It took a while and some pretty drastic events and measures to get it all back under control. 
Slowly but surely, life started falling into place again. 
And she realized that family is really what matters. 
And life is not supposed to be a party. 
At least not all the time.
and that was more than absolutely okay. 


Five years later, here I am. 
I am happily and blissfully married.
I have, maybe, a glass of wine every so often. 
I was first to pass out asleep on my bachelorette party in Las Vegas last year. 
At 11:00 p.m.


I am a wife.
I am a mother. {Yes, of angels so far, but a mother no less}
I spend my evenings blogging, Facebooking,
Happiness these days is a warm glue gun in my hand.
Cooking with my husband,
Trying out new restaurants,
Cuddling up and watching movies with J,
Riding bikes around the neighborhood,
Giving out popsicles to the neighborhood kids {yes, I'm VERY popular with them}.
And while I no longer spend my nights partying,
I spend my everyday knowing this life is my kind of celebration.





A Sick Day

more like a sick weekend!


I cannot lie and say that I look forward to every other weekend with J. 
Yes, every other.
That's because every other weekend, we have no kid {his son comes over on the other weekends} and he is not on call with work.
For those who do not know what that means... on call = constant phone calls at all hours of day and night {he gets little sleep}... and that equates to no movie dates, or very interrupted dinners and time together.


Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for those days and those phone calls too.
It is our bread and butter, I know.
But as a wife -- and a fairly newlywed at that! -- I really relish in the time that we get to have together.


This past weekend was one I was looking forward to as well. 
One of the last weekends left in the summer, I thought J and I could gallivant through Orange County or Los Angeles,
catch a movie,
go to the beach,
or find a restaurant or two that we haven't tried yet {my favorite of the list}.


We have also been pretty big on working out lately.
J reinstated our gym memberships and even got me sessions with a personal trainer.
We have been good about going everyday, drinking protein shakes, and taking our supplements.


And then Saturday morning hit me like a brick. 
I woke up with a gnarrrrly sore throat and sneezing like it was going out of style.
My nose was dripping like crazy,
my head felt like it was locked in a vice,
and I was weak as it gets.
Compounded with the ridiculous heat and surprising humidity, we decided to stay home for the day.


Of course, being one who doesn't do well with sitting still, I was able to finagle a trip to Bed Bath & Beyond and to Michael's for some reorganizing supplies and crafts.


BIG MISTAKE.
After returning from our errands, I was so exhausted that I could barely get up.


Even worse, I woke up on Sunday and was so congested that I stayed awake for an hour and a half, went to sleep for another 2 1/2 hours {and sweated my fever out}, went to dinner at 6pm, and was in bed and asleep by 7:30pm... all the way to 7:15 am on Monday morning.


Went to work and was sent home because I still sounded awful.


So here I am, home alone and sick in bed
on a sunny Monday morning...
unfolded blankets all over the living room...

cleaning items left all over the house...


the kitchen left with items all over the counter...

crafts left half done...

and bed left in disarray...

Who helps mommies and wives when they are sick?!??!







One Constant: Lessons From My Mother

So far in my life, I can honestly say that I have developed and nurtured many relationships.
I have given my heart, had it broken, and have been blessed enough to have had people help me heal it.


In all those times, I feel that I can wholeheartedly say that there has been one person who has been there, 
who has tirelessly stuck with me,
who, even in some of my darkest hours, when I fought like heck to keep her away, still rescued me, and held me, and told me everything is going to be okay. {here come the tears.}


I'll be the first to admit that I fought it for years.
"I will NOT be like my mother," I told myself.
I will not NOT allow my kids to eat in their rooms.
I will not rinse out Chinese takeout boxes before throwing them out into the trash.
I will not be neurotic and keep wiping down the kitchen and bathroom counters.
I will not stand in my own daughter's way, and let her wear however short she wants to wear her shorts.
I will be better.
I wil be aware.
I will not be HER.


{ circa 1984 }


And here I am, in the not-so-ripe age of . . . close to 30,
and I am admitting it now:
My mother was right.
I knew it when I found crumbs in my bed and got irritated.
I knew it when I walked into the house and smelled the rancid takeout boxes from the trash.
I knew it when I picked up the bottle of 409 and paper towels and wiped grease off my kitchen counters.
I knew it when I was disgusted when I saw 14 years olds at the mall in Daisy Dukes and skimpy tops.
I knew it in so many ways, and find out more everyday.
And even worse, I know that I am just like my mother in more ways than I am willing to admit.


{ Solvang, CA 2007 }


But as we all grow up, it becomes less and less about who is right or wrong, and becomes more about becoming the person you want to be.
I have learned volumes of this from Mom.
Growing up, she instilled so many lessons within me and my brothers, and we should only be so lucky and smart to fully understand and appreciate it all.



{ My bridal shower: The Peninsula Hotel, Beverly Hills, CA ~ April 25, 2010 }


As I have gotten older, I've seen firsthand the lessons that she has taught us,


Of courage = moving to the United States as a single mother immediately after my dad's and her separation / divorce;


{ Six Flags Magic Mountain, 1994 }


Of perseverance = a college and master's graduate working 3 jobs when we lived in New York in order to not disrupt my private school education from when we lived in the Philippines and send me to a very expensive private school in NY;


Of sacrifice = I am sure that my mom passed on simple pleasures in order to provide for me. 


{ My Wedding Day ~ May 22, 2010 }


Of pure, unconditional love = Without going into any further detail, she fought with me and for me in some of my darkest times, and never stopped believing in me and what I can do.


We never really get enough chances to recognize our moms
and what they do for us,
and I wanted to make it a point to let my mom know that
it doesn't have to be her birthday
or mother's day
{or a Nordstrom sale weekend}
but my mom is loved and appreciated
and is above and beyond the person I can ever hope to be.