I am officially 5 weeks pregnant as of yesterday. For most people who conceive the natural way, they would just be taking that home pregnancy test now. With that excitement already behind us, I am feeling completely antsy, and I must admit, a little bit in limbo.
Everything is confirmed: yes, I am definitely "with child". The doctor's office confirmed it, and so did the handful of pregnancy tests I have taken. Maybe it's because I thought my symptoms would be much more obvious by now. Granted, my lower abdomen is feeling firmer and tighter (and it's definitely NOT due to any sort of working out) and I have had cravings and some nausea. Still, my cravings have seemed, for the most part, "normal" -- no need for pickles and peanut butter or an anchovy and whipped cream sandwich -- and I don't know if it's just my normal foodie self craving Saturday's fish and chips or Friday's lamb burger. I know, for a fact, that I have been sensitive to texture. I had chicken curry, rice, and an egg for breakfast on Saturday (is that weird?) and while it was delicious while I ate it, the thought of it afterwards was enough to make me feel the food at the top of my throat, ready to come out. Anything soupy or stewy sounds disgusting to me, and I only want crunchy and crispy. However, it is not unheard of for me to want a lamb burger on any given (un-pregnant) night, and I remember going through a craving for fish and chips at one point or another these past couple of years. Additionally, the nausea, though present, has not been remarkable. I've had a history of acid reflux that makes me nauseus, and I don't see the difference between the acid reflux nausea and my pregnancy nausea. I also haven't seen myself throwing up in the morning (or any other time, for that matter) now. No notable tidal wave of exhaustion has hit me, which I can probably attribute to my really good sleeping habits, but I just thought that when pregnant, one could basically diagnose herself a narcoleptic due to being so exhausted all the time. What has been worth noting is my need to constantly use the restroom. I have found myself waking up well before my alarm clock due to my need to go potty. During my 8-hour workday, I have counted myself to have used the restroom 9-10 times a day last week.
Perhaps I am just lucky and perhaps I will just be eating my words because the dreaded exhaustion, insane cravings, nausea, and morning (or all day) sickness will set in within the next few weeks. Who knows. I think I can attribute my doubt and fear to the fact that we wanted to get pregnant so bad that this seems too good to be true. Again, this is the time to turn to faith and know that God is taking care of us and of our baby/babies. I know that it is all in His hands and I just have to pray for patience because we ALL know this is just me being antsy and impatient for the 20th to come so we can have our ultrasound.
Again, I want to thank everyone for your constant support and prayers. Both John and I have been so encouraged and inspired by all of you and your messages throughout our conception process. Please stay with us during this pregnancy too! xoA